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Resisting waking
My chaotic mind distorts
Damaging my rest
My mind gets going, laden with fear and energy, heat building up in my scalp as the unfocused fears run unburdened by logic or balance. Unreasonable and irrational, disrupting my rest and my day.
Youthful memories
Comic books
Toy ray-guns
Sunlit days
Free of shoes
Sand covered toes
Burning echoes
Of the first-girl-I-loved’s
Bemusement
And resultant mockery
I wonder
Why suffering
Delights us so?
Such cruelty divides us
A charred gulf bearing
Smoldering rubble
Remnants of hope
So many memories of this journey called life. Painful ones sometimes rise up, reminding me of their place in my mind, my psyche. Hints of underlying angers and frustrations, damage done.
My child prepares
The next journey
Of schooling
A single step
This new world
Transformation
Intimidates some
Others feel promise
Some blend them
Strange balance
What cowardice is
Letting fear define your life
Compassion stolen
I know anxiety lies
Now to embrace it
Contentment pulls
Me back to slumber
Despair’s grip
Weakens
Anxiety lurks
Waiting to
Wreck havoc
Awakened by sound
Strange night noises alarming
Yet sleeps demands win
Fear….anxieties
Like to rise up
Inhibiting my rest
My mind often wakes me with silly fears or concerns. I learned, ages ago, that the best thing I can do is wake, add them to my workflow. My brain then knows that I won’t forget.
Embracing my fear
Stepping into the unknown
So much I don’t know
I realized this morning how much I’ve struggled with my new job. I’m in a new industry and doing very different work. And i’s been a long time since I’ve stretched myself like this. It’s been fearful, but good. I need to push myself forward. It’s far too easy to settle into easy, no risk, safe work. I need to push through that fear and keep growing, stay alive and vibrant.
Insecurities torment
My broken psyche
Bringing out internal pain
Denying my gifts
Dragging on my dreams
I shall resist
Love this image I found over at The Odyssey Online. Definitely go give them a look.
Carl Setzer: Word Shaper 